Thoughts

Tonight I sit here and my thoughts are ALL OVER THE PLACE. I keep thinking of random things and random people. I have had so much going on this past week with Eric leaving that I have forgotten a few things and have had to cancel or reschedule things. Not because I want to but because honestly I just forgot. I have this funny feeling that some of my "cancellations and reschedulings" are kind of the last straw and that things are going to change. Whether its someone not being my friend anymore or just dropping me from their group. I try hard to be a good friend. But I do have flaws like everybody else. I'm not perfect. There was only one perfect person and that was Jesus. I can't compare myself to Him nor do I want to! I NEED for people to accept ME for ME and not the person THEY think I should be. Yes I'm flakey at times and yes I'm wishy washy. But that is ME! And I can be indesicive and sporatic and crazy and fun and most of the time I'm silly. I love laughing and making jokes. I love game nights and movie nights and playing Beatles Rockband. I love hugging my little boy and reading him the potty book everyday. Most of all I love Jesus because he loves me in all my different flaws! I dislike people who judge me because maybe I have some character flaws. But really I think that makes me who I am. Yes I forget random things but most of the time I remember. Just don't ask me to remember something when I'm having a bad week. Because I will probably forget! And if you don't know it this has been a tough week. Anyway today at church Kerby Anderson preached and one of the versus he gave us has stuck with me all day. (Matthew 7:1) Judge not, that you not be judged. Something to think about right there huh?
Much Aloha,
Amber and Blake :)