RANTS FROM TTC LAND.

Ok I haven't ranted in a good while. I figure I'm due one. I know of several people including myself who are hoping to expand their family. Several of us have been trying for years and months. Every month hoping that aunt flo doesn't rear her ugly head and that the test comes back positive. But month after month its the same ole same ole. Aunt flo rears her ugly head making us moody, sad and just depressed. I know we have been trying since December of 2008. Eric has been in and out A LOT so that doesn't help us. I try to remain positive and try to reassure myself that it will happen when its meant to and that I shouldn't beat myself up. But you know what. If I hear of one more person getting pregnant their first try or "we weren't trying it just happened" I think I might scream. Good for them and their awesome fertility. Sucks for us down here when they brag on EVERY facebook post at how happy and fantastic they are for getting pregnant. Some people just don't have it so lucky. So because our time in Hawaii is coming to an end. Eric and I will be stopping TTC for at least a few months so it doesn't interfere with PCSing. Wherever that may be. To my friends who have been pregnant recently or just had a baby I am not refering to you. Just some new events have really irked me and I need to get it off my chest. To those of you who have been trying for a long time and finally get pregnant CONGRATS! I know personally how long and hard the TTC journey can be. And for those of us still trying BABYDUST. I'm not a bitch really. And I do think that people who get pregnant have every right to be happy about it. There is just a time and place for everything. Don't call me bragging about it and telling me how excited you are AFTER I told you that we were still trying. And you can obviously tell it isn't fun for me to talk about. No I am not going for drugs right now. And I don't plan on it at this time. Maybe later on who knows.

And that is my rant. Have a fantabulous day.
Amber