Missing the man

Its took me a while but I've come to the conclusion. I guess I just really miss my hubby today. I think reality is sinking in that yes he is really gone and that he won't be home till Thanksgiving. In honesty I am really blessed. I know multiple Army wives, Marine wives, Navy wives , Air Force Wives and Coast Guard Wives whose husbands have been gone longer. I mean last year my husband was only home like 100 days out of the year. It was crazy! I had my sad moments then too. But for some reason this time I'm just in a funk. I guess I hoped deep down the boat would break so bad they couldn't get underway. I know better then to hope that. I know they have a job to do and if they don't go someone else's husband has to go. I also realize that its inevitable. And really I am usually kind of ready for him to go. Not because I want him away but because I know its happening and I just want to get it over with. I think a lot of my problem is I know this should be one of our last patrols on this boat. After this boat we should be heading to land. For 4 years at that! I think this next week will be the real trial. I just hope I can stay super busy with things and not think about him being gone. So I guess my goal is to have something to do everyday. Even if its a project here at home. I do have a huge closet to go through and sort. I am also helping a friend get ready for their up coming move off the island. So this week I should be in better spirits. So heres to making sure I have a busy week and I don't remember missing my husband so much! Next week will be good!

Aloha,

Amber